I often rest on my back with my knees up to explore somatic movements. My favourite includes a slow pelvic rock coordinated with my breath. I find it so relaxing and helpful I now do it a couple of times a week.
Recently after stretching my calves, I lay down to explore this somatic movement again. As I relaxed into the movement I stopped in surprise. I’d had a sudden awareness of a spot in my neck the size of a small coin. A strange ‘gap’ feeling in my neck.
Confused, I started the somatic movement again and the ‘gap’ vanished in the sensations of familiarity. ‘Good’ I thought and continued to flow.
Then I remembered appreciation. I remembered Body Harmony sessions where great results sometimes arose from simply appreciating what was discovered. I knew I could stop and spend some time with the specifics of whatever this ‘gap’ was. I thought ‘Why not try? What is the worst that could happen?’.
Slower than before I eased into the movement. And there was the ‘gap’. I slowed to rest in connection with it. I didn’t know what to else to do so I received and breathed in the sense of it.
I experienced it as a silvery grey gap.
How can something feel ‘silvery grey’? I don’t know, but staying with the sensation didn’t feel bad. It felt unknown. Gradually the relationship transformed into a feeling that I could only find one word for. The word that felt right.
It felt beautiful. This beautiful gap in my neck. I lay there, the unfamiliar and awesome feeling unfolding and expanding.
As I remember and write this I start to cry. I don’t know why. They are not tears of sadness and they are not tears of loss.
It’s beauty again. Beauty, joy and something else. This time with a runny nose.
A refreshing reminder that I can remember a great somatic experience and benefit from it again. Thank you Body Harmony.
Hooray for the unfamiliar awesome!